As Salam...
Susahnya menjadi seorg wanita..Hati wanita sangat sensitif..Mudah terusik..Sangat lembut..Even mulut ckp kasar,finally dy nangis jugak dalam hati dy..because she cant bear anymore..she cant hide her tears forever...and crying makes them feel better..i thought i was strong enough but eventually im wrong..i am not strong..i am weak..i am freakin weak!
Yesterday was the day..was the day that i burst everything out! i cannot hide my feelings anymore..its time for me to shout everything out..im sorry my dear..but i cannot stand anymore..the more i hide the more i feel the pain..yes,ive been acting weird lately..dats my fault..but yesterday i was totally ikhlas nk follow u pg wedding kawan u..bcos i thought u were alone..then u called and told me u with ur frens..ok fine..i follow jgk since i dh niat nk teman u...and we reached our destinations..i was pretending that i am fine where definitely i am not..u and ur frens..we are totally different...and im just smiling like everything is okay...then i sumone asking me,''korg da couple 3thn?ktorg xtau pon..smpai hati Q xbgtau ktorg..''and my answer,''oh..yeke?'' tu je yang mampu klua dr mulut ni..dah xde kata2 dah..kenapa u?kenapa?u malu i gf u?kenapaaa???sampai lah balik...we were just two in his car..he asked me,''u ok ke?''...''yes..im okay.''tu je bnd yg ktorg ckp dr nilai smpai ke bangi..well,xjauh mana pon...
Then i whatsapped him...we started to fight..and this yang betol2 gado yang end up dengan we needed a BRAKE...we need some space..yea space..why?a lots of things happen..and i xnak share kat sini sbb if ad org knal him,nt jadi mengumpat pulak..ckup laa skdr sy xdpt terima lifestyle dy yg terlalu KL...sy org kg..saya asal Kelantan..negeri termiskin..awak?dr fam yg berada..mungkin adat dan cara kita berbeza..tp sy cuba terima awak..awak ad kelebihan & kekurangan..saya cuba terima..but yesterday,what uve done to me sangat2 xbleh terima..i am sorry..lets take dis time to concentrate to things we wanna do...klu ad jodoh,ada..klu xda,mungkin u akan jmpa org yg lebih baik drp i...
That was yesterday's story..and today, when the clock hits 6.45am saya gerak from bangi menuju ke damansara..dengan perasaan bercampur baur..otak berserabut..tertinggal barang kt bangi..and yes..i cried in the car..what is wrong with me?why am i crying?didnt im strong?then i realized i am not strong..i am weak..we didnt even contact each other..cos we agreed to do so..even everytime i check whatsapp,i tgk dy punya 'last seen'..but we need time..let us see how it goes..idk until when..i just can pray the best for both of us..
I love you..i wanna love you forever..insyaAllah...i still love you...and i hope u are too sayang..
p/s : Doa Untuk Kekasih
