Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am home againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am young againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am fun again
However far awayI will always love youHowever long I stayI will always love youWhatever words I sayI will always love youI will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am free againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am clean again
However far awayI will always love youHowever long I stayI will always love youWhatever words I sayI will always love youI will always love you

i miss you...truly missing you my dear..

Just Give Me A Reason

As Salam...

Susahnya menjadi seorg wanita..Hati wanita sangat sensitif..Mudah terusik..Sangat lembut..Even mulut ckp kasar,finally dy nangis jugak dalam hati dy..because she cant bear anymore..she cant hide her tears forever...and crying makes them feel better..i thought i was strong enough but eventually im wrong..i am not strong..i am weak..i am freakin weak!

Yesterday was the day..was the day that i burst everything out! i cannot hide my feelings anymore..its time for me to shout everything out..im sorry my dear..but i cannot stand anymore..the more i hide the more i feel the pain..yes,ive been acting weird lately..dats my fault..but yesterday i was totally ikhlas nk follow u pg wedding kawan u..bcos i thought u were alone..then u called and told me u with ur frens..ok fine..i follow jgk since i dh niat nk teman u...and we reached our destinations..i was pretending that i am fine where definitely i am not..u and ur frens..we are totally different...and im just smiling like everything is okay...then i sumone asking me,''korg da couple 3thn?ktorg xtau pon..smpai hati Q xbgtau ktorg..''and my answer,''oh..yeke?'' tu je yang mampu klua dr mulut ni..dah xde kata2 dah..kenapa u?kenapa?u malu i gf u?kenapaaa???sampai lah balik...we were just two in his car..he asked me,''u ok ke?''...''yes..im okay.''tu je bnd yg ktorg ckp dr nilai smpai ke bangi..well,xjauh mana pon...

Then i whatsapped him...we started to fight..and this yang betol2 gado yang end up dengan we needed a BRAKE...we need some space..yea space..why?a lots of things happen..and i xnak share kat sini sbb if ad org knal him,nt jadi mengumpat pulak..ckup laa skdr sy xdpt terima lifestyle dy yg terlalu KL...sy org kg..saya asal Kelantan..negeri termiskin..awak?dr fam yg berada..mungkin adat dan cara kita berbeza..tp sy cuba terima awak..awak ad kelebihan & kekurangan..saya cuba terima..but yesterday,what uve done to me sangat2 xbleh terima..i am sorry..lets take dis time to concentrate to things we wanna do...klu ad jodoh,ada..klu xda,mungkin u akan jmpa org yg lebih baik drp i...

That was yesterday's story..and today, when the clock hits 6.45am saya gerak from bangi menuju ke damansara..dengan perasaan bercampur baur..otak berserabut..tertinggal barang kt bangi..and yes..i cried in the car..what is wrong with me?why am i crying?didnt im strong?then i realized i am not strong..i am weak..we didnt even contact each other..cos we agreed to do so..even everytime i check whatsapp,i tgk dy punya 'last seen'..but we need time..let us see how it goes..idk until when..i just can pray the best for both of us..

I love you..i wanna love you forever..insyaAllah...i still love you...and i hope u are too sayang..

p/s : Doa Untuk Kekasih

Tak Bisa Memilihmu Part 1

As salam...

So wassap people? Long time havent citing in dis disasterous blog..muahha... :p Jadi entry kali ni adalah berkaitan dgn kekonpiusan diri ini..walaaaa~tajuk xley blah kan..hurm..act im writing dis blog at the opis..nampak sgt xde keja ny kan?hahaha...lek laa..bru kul 9am..bos pon lom smpai..xyah nk tunjuk rajin sgt lerr..hiks!

Jadi pada 16 Feb lepas saya ke KLCC utk buat medical check up kt TTMC..ahaa...berita baik ny ialah i get employed by Petra Energy Berhad..haa?xpnah dgr?saya pon xpnh dgr jgk before dis..dah rezeki..terima saje..after 3mths jd temp staff, then diorg decide nak take as a permanent..alhamdulillah..rezeki kn?as an oil & gas company, med checkp kena laa wat kt klcc..petronas laa kan..ada kaitan?xde..just the oil and the gas je ada kaitan..yg len xde~so i went there at 10am..after done with the med check up *ting* i remembered my fren is working with Petronas..ape lagi,laju amik phone

Me :"salam,ad mn ter?kijo dok?"...

*kring* (bunyi msg)...

Dia : "kijo wano" translate (kerja,wassap?)" gteww kau..hahha...

Me : "ejah laa...waa duk klcc.."

Dia : "tggu ah..kto lunch skali.."

Me : "bereh boh..!"

After few mins, dia pon trun laa ke level 2..pungpangpungpang nk makan mana? Last2 g pizza hut?uh..boringg!ahhaha..wut to do..dia nk blanja..ekot saja...so we enjoyed the pizza moment..hahaha..pastu dy tny dtg cane?me jwb, lrt sudeyh...jln kl xbiasa sgt..plus parking mhl..okey..nk tggu dy hbs keja ke nk blk trus?tgk keadaan dlu lah...pikir2 punya pikir..last2 bgtau dy,tggu dy hbs keja sbb sy pon xtau nk watpe klu balik umah kn?cooling period lah katakan...hohoh...so i waited for about 2hrs..act nk tgk muvie,..skali muvie yg terhampir skali (paham ke?) x menarik..penyudahnya jalan2 kt klcc jew..smbil g theraphy...tgk hbags smua ahhh..xtahan! tp nasib laa nafsu xkuat sgt..pujuk diri nt dpt gaji bru beli..hoho...

Finally its 4pm! fuhh~~klua laa ktorg dr klcc tu..rs mcm stahun tanak g klcc lg dah..(poyos)..hikss..jalan2 pny jalan ktorg g mkn lg kt kg baru..makan lg?yea...-_-''...xheran laa perut makin kedepan skang..kalah org preggy..hahaha...lps mkn tu igt nk blk tros..pstu dy ckp dy nk g uptown danau kota..hello! nak ikot ok! ive never been there!hahaha...dy ckp ok je..alrite...nk tggu kul 10 tu punya laa lama..so we decide nk g karok lu spukol..kata ny msk AF..opps! da lame xde..mentor lah.ahhaha...da hbs karok we all gerak laa ke danau kota..first time hocay! excited?xsgt laa..uptown je pon..hikss...igt nk crk casing hp..ahhh..byk sgt kedai ny..mls nk tour...tggu dy potong slua lg..beli vapor laa ape..tlg laa...finally at 12am dia anta me balik umah..haaa..amik kau! nk derak sgt...kul 12 bru blk umah..tau fam ak ni mampos!kena kurung kt klate la..hohoh...

Jadi apekah kaitan cerita saya ini dgn tajuk di atas?ntah..ak pon konpius..sbb tu tajuk dy ckp psl kekonpiusan diri ini..ahhha..konpius x baca?konpius?heee...act the person that i went out tu my very gud fren..my long lost fren..my best fren..my bla bla bla fren..act dia ialah HE..hehehe..

Alamakkk...xdpt eden nk mencurah idea yg byk ni sbb dah banyak kerja tertangguh..hoho...see u nxt time yeaa....nt sambung lg pasal my very best gud fren ever! gtew!hahaha

p/s : nk buat blog title Tak Bisa Memilihmu Part 2 letewww..gediksss sgt!

Hate that I love you!

As salam...

So,what are you guys doing today?public holiday man! perhaps some hanging out with frens, dating w loved ones, doing laundry and any other home works or just lazying at home like me do?yeaa! high 5! Since my family xde kat bangi ni jadi tinggal lah keseorangan...Bosan yg amat..cane nk buat..tiket xbeli..padan muka me aite?hmmm...

So,hate that i love you huh?gempak ke gedik pny title tu?ke annoying?smua laa kan..yess...hate that i love you..lumrah seorg manusia ingin mengasihi dan dikasihi..ehemmm...ayattt.....nyampah mak!heheh...so i have dis boy called boyfie,sweetheart,hubby-to-be(insyaAllah),darling,baby,gewe,gerek or wuteva you call them..of cos laa sayangkn..tp tu laa..bercinta ni kdg2 happy kdg2 nyampah!hahah..smua kehendak Allah..klu dh tertulis jodoh saya dan dia di lah mahfuz,sy terima dgn hati terbuka..tapi klau tidak,mungkin Allah ada yang lebih utk kami..we'll never know what Allah planned for us but Allah's plan is ALWAYS THE BEST okay!

We've been together for 3 years..and this is our 4th yrs of loving..sincerely i wanna end this relationship with a marriage..a wanna be 'halal' to him..everyday i pray that Allah will grant us happiness..however,lately i felt that he has acted weird..acted ke acting?wuteva lah.hehe..grammar fail katakan..nk juge skipping kan..speaking..ok ok..saje je..*wink*..he said he's doing ok..means like the usual days..but for me not..maybe it was me..tp mcm pelik..seriously pelik..i dun know what..of cos laa kta tau bila gerek kta len kn?xke?hubby korg ke?tunang korg ke?acaner?one thing for sure, i think he's becoming more ego now!haha..dlu,saya lah plg ego..ego tahap xde tahap..but now,saya rasa dy lagi ego dari saya! ini tidak boleh dibiarkan!huksss...so how?or people change?haih...mcm2 laa syaitan ni kn?buat ms ni sy doakan yang baik2 aja utk kami berdua..klau ad jodoh,ada lah..klau xde,sy redha..insyaAllah...

p/s:  eh masih ad 2nd post laa..hidup lg buat ms nie..haha :p

first post ever! :D

As salam...

Finally peeps! finally,me have a BLOG! people call it blog..story to share..e-diary or wuteva..jadi pd hri ini 24 Jan 13 i write a post on my own blog bebeyh~ excited much huh?poyosss~so today is Maulidur Rasul..banyakkan selawat ke atas Nabi Muhammad S.A.W..bkn hr ni je tauu..hri2 len pon..*wink*

wanna bet with me?guess wut?i rasa blog ni akan tahan urm..like a year?a month?a week?yeah..a day me guess!muahahah~we will see ya...so im writing this because first, i believe this is my diary..no one will read it..ngahahaha...secondly ive got no one to share with..this is private me guess..tp nk jgk story the mory kan...

so why i started blogging?to kill time i believe..ok..bosan je blog ni kn?ok laa..esok ak tros remove..ngahahah! this blog is for me to write and share my life..today is a public holiday and i made a BIG MISTAKE iaitu tidak pulang ke kampung terchentaa KELANTAN! silly me?!yeahh...but one thing for sure im working..and still under probation/contract..rugi woo klu cuti..unpaid leave ok! kau hado?takdo kn?hurmmm...

so what i did today was right after the clock hit 6:00pm, i trus menuju ke e-curve dgn membawa harapan tinggi menggunung..gunung kew?stakat nk tgk movie saja maa..luckily im period so i beli tiket kul 7:00pm lah kn..nt xde laa lewat nk blk bangiii~to cut it short i watched THE IMPOSSIBLE which i believe i cried at one of the scenes..sedey cte dy..moral of the story,kasih ibu sampai ke syurga...jadi,sayangilah ibu anda...sape2 yg nak tau The Impossible ni cte psl ape,sila google or youtube..kata pakai smartphones..ahaksss!

after the movie,i went back home..before smpai umah tu sempat lg laa singgah kedai tomyam pekena tomyam dlu...mana laa perut xmenangis klau kul 10pm pon tgh lazat menikmati nasik+tomyam+daging merah+telur dadar+kailan ikan masin! opps,not to mention i am not alone okey! gila ape?hikss..ditemani buah buahan tercinta..eh..buat hati..insyaAllah bakal suami..woii..gatal..tp doa2kan saja.. :)

after a long journey,,long ke?i safely arrived at Garden Homes at 1145pm...tau map & pap mau suh i balik duk kelate..hihihi...yg penting selamat!actually i got another story to share..tp mata sangat2 mtk jasa baik i suh tdo..katanya letih amat..ok lah..tdo dlu..baca doa tdo dlu yer...Allahuma bismika ahya waamut!

p/s : blog yang confirm xde org bca pon!ehh..heheh 

As salam ('',)